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16 June 2012 @ 05:08 pm
You're every minute of my every day.  
I was just reading my sister's blog and realized how jealous I am of her creativity. She has written in her blog every day since January 1, 2010, and always manages to have something to say about her day or at least has a topic to write about. I was reading one of her entries when she was describing a time she was angry. She wrote, "My jaw becomes rigid, my brow furrows, and my throat tightens as I feel the heat move freely within my chest." As much as I know that it is not a complex or entirely difficult sentence, my mind does not allow my writing to be that descriptive. In my case, my sentence would probably say something along the lines of "Every time I think about it, my blood starts to boil." I have such a to-the-point type of mindset. There's nothing wrong with it, but I guess I just wish that, for once, I could write an entry without it feeling like work. For my sister, it comes naturally. For me, it takes patience, time and a lot of deleting.

Since my last entry, winter came and went and spring is just about over. Benny and I have been homeowners for almost 8 months now and we couldn't be happier about our choice to take this step. It has definitely made saving for a wedding more difficult since we blew through our savings to buy a house, but we have made a budget and are trying hard to stick to it. We enjoy having our own space and a place where we can have guests over comfortably. We have wonderful neighbors with three extremely adorable, extremely blonde children. I really like our location because, while we live in a city, it can almost feel rural. Our dog loves having a ton of land to run around and play on. So far, I have found that the hardest part of owning a home is maintaining the lawn, especially since we live on 1.80 acres. We have recently put in a flower bed, although it is currently lacking any flowers. We have found that flowers can get pretty pricey and are taking our time when it comes to getting them. As much as I would love to have a complete flower bed, I would also like to get married. And with that, some things take precedence while other projects get put on hold.

Wedding planning has just started to pick up as well. This winter, we set a date and booked our venue. I will become Mrs. Laura Jordan on October 12, 2013. I absolutely love our venue as well. It is on a newly renovated 18-hole golf course and has a very modern feel with beautiful hardwood floors, high ceilings, large contemporary chandeliers, and balconies that look out to gorgeous views. It is not too big, which works for us as we plan to have a smaller wedding (around 100 people) in order to keep our costs lower. Originally, the only option for holding a ceremony at the venue was indoors so we were a little disappointed that we could not have an outdoor ceremony. However, they recently added an outdoor area that overlooks the golf course and has a lovely water feature which we couldn't be more excited about. In the worst case scenario that it rains, we will just take it indoors where we originally planned on having the ceremony, which is still a very beautiful area. We also considered the option of getting married at a church, but Ben is not Catholic and I have not been practicing for a while for personal reasons. However, since Ben and I are both spiritual and have strong Christian values, we intend on being married by a minister, reverend or someone ordained.

I recently attended a bridal show with my mother and could not believe how far in advance I have to start booking some of the vendors, specifically the photographer and the DJ. While talking to some vendors about my wedding date, some said that they were already booked for that day, while others said that we should consider selecting a vendor soon as booking for 2013 was very active. Although I know we have a popular weekend (Columbus Day weekend), almost all of the wedding "to-do" checklists I have seen or downloaded say that I should start looking for a photographer and a DJ 9-12 months before the wedding. We are still 16 months away from our day, and yet we are being told that, if we want someone, we need to get started now. Therefore, Benny and I have started to look at and set up appointments with DJs and photographers. It is starting to become much more real to me now. It's not just planning anymore. We are booking and committing to contracts and spending money now. As much as this is an exciting experience, it also puts my stomach in knots and makes my heart race with anxiety. Although we are receiving some financial help from our parents (which every dollar we appreciate immensely), most of the weddings costs is coming out of our own pockets. It is very overwhelming, but I refuse to let it get the best of me. I want my first marriage to be my only marriage. With that in mind, I will only go through this experience once in my life, and I want to enjoy and soak up every moment. At the end of the day, all that matters is that I will be married to my best friend.

Other than that, I am taking classes three and four of my graduate program this summer, working, and hanging out. Since February, Allyson, Andy, Benny and I have attended trivia nights every week. Overall, life is busy but good.
Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: "Everything" - Michael Buble